so Sunday is my daughers birthday

she would be three years old if she had survived. i guess i am kind of upset over it still, because i havent forgotten her and i still love her every day. I know she will never leave me and i know she will always be a part of my life but maybe its time for me to move on.
its part of my plans to gain a better future for myself, to leave everything that happened in ireland behind in ireland. i know that those who i lost will always be with me but for now i need to focus on my future and my happiness, in starting a new life. i'll always love Holly and she'll always be with me but she doesnt have to be the only thing thats with me.
Tomorrow the amazing ~
WALLWAGER is coming down to spend the weekend with me

i really really cant wait to see him again, i miss him like hell... have been craving cuddles for soooo long and tomorrow i gets them again! i think the current plan is that a group of us are going camping, just a quiet thing for the night, and then see what happens from there. i have to talk to bill later and confirm some things

but it shouldnt be too hard to do

he lives next door lol.
this weekend will be hard with it being Hollys birthday, but i know i can be strong and face it, and i'm just lucky that my amazing Luke will be here to support me and keep me distracted from it all